Close to my heart
that’s where I let you stay
but because of all the hurts and pain before you
I start to become afraid.
Afraid that you
my smile is too good to be true.
That although I know my worth,
maybe I am just not good enough for you.
You see the hurt and pain had relinquished out of me
when I gave you the key to my heart,
I forgot to tell you to be cautious,
this home is a broken one.
Inside there is a little girl
who is seeking for love but is afraid that love does not want her back.
I mean love takes her
but then throws her back into the sea watching her drown
but then visits once and blue to profess aloud I was a great catch!
So really, are you really for me?
I know I can love but then my mind tells me
no, no, no my dear
He doesn’t love you!
Just simply look at how your own father even abandoned you
So I admit
I am scared to fully love you
to love at all,
and yet again I allowed myself to love you
because you make me happy
But my mind is crazy
Better yet it’s not crazy
It just remembers all the hurt and pain
that won’t lay to rest.
To then always asking myself…are all men the same?